Dark Secrets, part 1
By Thomas P Whitfield Sr.

update: 30/05/2001 to whitfield

Chapter I

What has life taught you about secrets? Do you have any dark Secrets that you
wish to god the world would never find out? Do you contemplate the idea of
what would happen if someone would find out those dark thoughts? Are you
capable of handling the consequences of having a dark secret? What if your
secret wasn't your fault What if it was bestowed upon you by another?
Nevertheless, hell, lets face it is yours now no matter what now Right? Well
am I? Do I sound bitter to you? Good I am, I am sitting hear Contemplating my
course of action, just remember I never asked for this I was just ordered to
deal with it. I did what I could now its time to do something. What am I
babbling about? My sisters Eileen and Lisa are doing something very wrong.

Right now, it is all so foggy to me. I just ran away from them. Lisa The
younger of my 2 older sisters is 19 years old, with big blue eyes and long
platinum blonde hair standing 6ft tall. She would kill me for telling you this
but weighs 200 even does not look it thou. She is very athletic she works out
some weights mostly aerobics. Eileen On the other hand could intimidate a pro
wrestler she is also blonde but she has that dirty blonde look with blue eyes
also. She stands 6ft 3 inches tall and is stocky weighing 257. I know that
cause I walked in the bathroom by mistake while she was weighing herself big
mistake. Got my butt kicked for it. She drug me into her bedroom, ya that's
right she lives at home still at 22, hell she doesn't even work.

She threw me on the bed literally I bounced off the bed like a tennis ball
being thrown against the wall. When I bounced her butt crashed against my
chest and sat down on my chest. I could not breath I tried to scream but she
told me if I did, it would get worse. Therefore, I did the smart thing and
shut up. What can I do tell mom? Mom is a midget compared to her. In addition,
she does not take any of mom's crap. Not that mom gives any but nonetheless
she would not take it. Well hear I am a few moments ago pinned to the bed by
my sisters huge thong covered butt. Lisa walks in and locks the door. Oh great
now I am trapped right, well it gets a lot worse before it gets better. By
this time, I am gasping for air begging her to get her 257lb ass off me.

Know all her weight was not on me or I would be dead instead of writing in my
Journal.

Nevertheless, Lisa says "lets have some fun with him" To Eileen. Eileen
Replies "What shall we do with him"? Its not like he is going anywhere. Lisa
follows by saying "Jack Taylor; you walked in on us in the bathroom for the
last time"! "I'm sorry please get off", I gasped. "What is it with You Jacky?
Want to free show well I'll give you one you pervert" she Then Took her top
off exposing her bra, a red silk bra to match the fire in her eyes. She is
very well off breasticly speaking. She leaned over so she was looking right
into my face. "This what you want Jacky" unsnapping her bra from the front
exposing her breast. They were daggling inches from my face I now for the
first time forgot that my big sister was sitting on me. I screamed NO Help Me,
Don't! However, to no avail she grabbed my head and rubbed them into my face.
All I could see was darkness engulfed by a sea of her huge breasts cutting off
what little air I had left. She pulled away. Saying, "tell Mom and Dad and
We'll Beat your ass till you die. Understand Jacky?" " Yes" I said sobbing.

Eileen Got up but I was to weak and in shock to move. Nevertheless, that did
not matter cause I was not done yet. Eileen took me off the bed stood me up in
front of the bed while Lisa was behind me. "Its game time" Eileen announced.
Please God no was what I tried to say before I was cut off by Lisa cupping her
hand over my mouth, while shoving me down to my knee's, while Eileen pulled up
her shirt while turning around. Terror covered my eyes I knew this game well.
I tried to fight but my puny 5ft 4 inch 110lb body was too week to fight as
usual. She exposed her thong-covered butt pulling her thong down. Exposing her
huge dimpled covered ass. "Bring him in," she ordered. By now, her hand was
covering my nose as well, preventing any air from getting in. I tried to free
myself but it was no use. My face drew closer and closer to her naked ass. My
heart pounding my face sweating, and my eyes bulging out of my head I knew
what was coming. I finally ended up with my face, a fraction of an inch away
from her butt Hole when Lisa Released my nose from her grip and Eileen
simultaneously let out a hissing fart right in my face, Knowing after she
cupped my nose and mouth so long I had no recourse but to take it all in. My
eyes watered and welled up my stomach turned from the stench. It was like
every sewer in the street exploding all at once in your face. They laughed as
I struggled and cried they loved it. Lisa let me go. I coughed and gagged
stumbling out of the room running down the hallway to my room here and locked
the door! I heard them laughing. Eileen then said "for a moment I thought you
were going to Do him or something.' " Ya right' she replied. Do him? Then
Eileen replied "you scared me their for a minute." They laughed again I moved
away from the door. I could not bare to here more.

This Is my space for some Odd reason I do not get bugged in hear much. I mean
Why me? Cause I am smart, I did not ask to be. These two know I am developed
mentally beyond my years. However, I lack in stature I am a runt. They use
that obviously to humiliate me. I do not pretend to know everything, but I do
know I need to write this before its too late. It is getting to weird their
games are being perverted sort of. Maybe I am taking it wrong I hope cause
part of me does not really think they have any designs on me that way but you
never know around here.

I made mention of things being foggy to me right now. They are doing something
very wrong to me and to each other. I just thank God it has not come full
circle yet. Nevertheless, in order to move on with this first I must take you
back to when I was 5 years old. It was autumn of 1981 seven years ago. It was
a normal day cold blustery fall day. I remember it well cause Mom had called
me in from the yard for a combination of reasons. One it was getting windy and
damp outside blowing the leaves off the tree's like a nor'easter with a
mission of telling me that this day was going to come back to me like those
damn nor'easters tend to do every so many years. The second reason was Mom
needed milk to finish her mash potatoes that she was making for dinner.

I came in Lisa was on the couch she told me to sit beside her and watch TV
until mom got back. Mom told me to be good. Moreover, Lisa commented "My baby
brother is always good for me cause he loves his sister don't ya Jacky" "yes
cutie" I said pinching her cheek like she liked to do to me a lot. She picked
me up in her arms and cradled me like a baby I loved when she did that back
then. Her and Eileen will do it now to ridicule me but nevertheless, I endure.
She would cover my cheeks with kisses and rub noses with me, I would smile,
and she would be so happy. Well Mom left and we were alone. She started to
tell me. "Jacky (she always called me Jacky I prefer Jack but then it was
cool) this reminds me of when you were a baby and mom used to breast feed you.
Ya know I'm becoming a women now I think I might have milk in their for you
she pulled up her shirt and exposed her already good sized chest go ahead
check for me Jacky. So I just did cause I never thought any thing bad of my
sister. I took her breast in my mouth but no milk. I pulled away saying
"Theirs nothing coming out." "Keep trying it will come out. So I did I sucked
and sucked but nothing. I did notice that she kept squeezing my butt, while
rubbing herself using my butt. She started to make a funny moaning sound I now
know as an orgasm. When she was done she held me close and started crying.
Jacky she said I love you, more ways then you will ever know, forget what I
just did if you love me I will never happen again.

I asked being naive did you just do something bad. She cried and laughed at
the same time and said to me. "You are so sweet Jacky No but Mom or dad
wouldn't understand the way I can love you. Nevertheless, you need not worry
about it your way too young maybe when you are older I will tell you. I owe
you that cause when you get older you might remember this day. If you do just
remember my words Lisa loves you and never would hurt you! I then asked her
"Lisa was I bad for sucking your booby? No baby you are a good boy. Lisa was
just playing a game that Eileen taught me. That is all can we just act like it
never happened ok. "Ok Lisa I said I won't tell mommy, "I love my sister and
mommy will never hurt Lisa as long as I am around". She then kissed me on the
mouth I felt her tongue going in my mouth just then mom's key hit the lock and
she tossed me to the side of her. She grabbed a book off the table and started
reading it to me as mom walked in.

There is one thing I never told a living sole besides that, and that is I at
the time liked what she did. However, I was only five; I thought that is the
way she was supposed to show me love. Nothing ever did happen after that.
Until today does this mean, she is going to confront me or worse, about what
happened, as she promised. Will I be faced with having to relive that day? It
is all still somewhat fuzzy but I do not know. Hell its getting late I am
tired and wanna go to bed for now I don't know all I do know is There are many
dark secrets here. Moreover, I am scared! Night.

He Saved his secret journal He kept hidden by right clicking the file
selecting properties, then clicking on hidden file then applying it to the
file by hitting apply. When you clicked out of it, it would disappear cause
computers do not show system or hidden file normally so bang file there but
gone. He knew his sisters or mom and dad for that matter new enough about
computers to figure out how to unhide a file. Or even that its possible to
hide a file that was his advantage its their in his desktop but would never be
seen cause of his IQ.

Jack was quite a bit smarter then anyone ever knew. When he said that he had
to do something about it, he had a plan. He would set up his computer threw
his mail server to once a Month at a certain date to send out an email with
his journal he would be writing over the years about them called dark secrets,
To F.B.I. headquarters with the heading If your reading This I must be dead!
He would cancel it the day before he had planed then set it up for the next
month. He new times were going to get harder. So he thought if things got to
bad He would make a run for it and let this email go. Telling the world what
was going on over the years. He was certain it was going to get worse.
However, prayed that he would never have to write the words last night he was
raped! That was his biggest fear.

As it, stands they really in his eyes did not do anything but scare him. The
childhood memory and today's events were just them playing He knew what she
said when she was five. He new at very least Eileen made Lisa suck on her
chest like he was forced unknowingly to do when he was five. Beyond that, he
never had any proof but over 7 years and her size Eileen could have easily
have made her do thing sexual. Nevertheless, you cannot prove rape without
proof. He had none, even admitted he probably was wrong about the extent of
this whole thing. However, it was obvious whatever is going on he is starting
to get drug into it increasingly. So at very least he thought this email if
necessary would bring help if he could not call on his own. Even if they did
not believe it, they are bound by law to check and make contact with him. He
knew that. Then he would speak.

After finishing setting up his mail file with the Journal attached, he went to
get ready for bed, when he heard a knock on his door. He opened the door and I
was Lisa saying in a kind of sad-depressed voice "Let me in Jacky time for a
talk". He took the defensive cause of what they just did a while ago. She saw
it in his eyes and said, "don't jump Jack Just want to talk. Remember I owe
you that. No, I did not forget and by the look, you are giving me its fresh on
your mind too. Lets talk."

"Its time we talk about what we always were avoiding. I know today must have
made you think I was going to do it again." She sat on the foot of his bed
inviting him to sit down next to her he complied without fear cause now he
needed to know.

"Eileen went out I heard you typing so I knew you were still up so I decided
now is my best chance mom and dad are asleep." Do you remember Jack? Yes, he
said reluctantly. How much? Jack said a bit more hesitantly "the whole Thing I
never told Mom". I know I often wondered why? He felt tears Forming in his
eyes. Moreover, noticed all his fear was replaced with wanting to know why. He
followed by saying "you don't know?" No jack I do not. "You told me that it
was a game Eileen taught you. Therefore, at very least, I figured, you had to
be forced to suck on her chest. But when you did that other stuff I kind of
figured out it had to be more." " Your very smart Jack Their was more to it.
If I tell you cannot tell anyone especially Eileen cause she will hurt me if
anyone knows.

"Lisa I never let it out yet why would I now?" "Ok well here goes. A short
time before I did what I did to you was my first run in with Eileen. I was
sick and pretty much bed ridden and mom made her sit with me while she was
away. If you remember I was 12 and Eileen was 15 and my size now. She came in
while Mom was out and asked if I needed anything. I told her some hot tea
cause my throat hurt she returned in about 10 minutes with the tea. You were
at school. She was supposed to be helping me. She came in With tea, cookies,
and some juice. She sat down by my bedside and said you look like crap. I
replied feel like it too. Let me help you. I will give you an alcohol rub down
to help you with that fever she said to me. Of course, one of mom's old
remedies. She went into the bathroom and immediately came back with it. Strip
she said coming into the room all the way down so you are naked. It felt weird
but I figured she was going to help me so I did. She threw my comforter to the
floor and I was their naked she said rollover on your belly. Therefore, I did.
She sat on my butt I noticed her weight was on me and complained. She said
stop whining I will be done soon enough. She rubbed it all over my back very
softly she started asking me if it felt good. I admitted it felt very good I
was burning up and the alcohol felt cool she said good baby. I should have
noticed the baby comment but I did not. She turned around spreading her legs
out so that she was now on my back, with her legs out in a semi v-shape. She
started rubbing it on my inner thighs and my ass with her hand brushing up
against my pussy. Making sure the alcohol was not near there. What are you
doing I said loudly? She said shut up and let me finish. I replied your
fondling my ass stop it! I screamed. Fondling your ass, she said very angrily.
No dear this is fondling she said she must have at this point dropped the
alcohol cause the smell filled the air. In addition, she started squeezing my
ass very firmly grabbing up hands full of my ass. I screamed No what are you
doing! I then screamed for help but no one was home. She just snapped! She sat
up a moment, with my head under her large ass. Pinning my face into the pillow
so I could not scream she took off her Top and took the skirt she was wearing
and unzipped it. I felt her naked ass on my head and neck I knew what she was
going to do! I could not scream I could not even breathe I was terrified. This
was my sister, I tried and tried finally I got my head to the side enough to
talk. Eileen Please I said what are you doing I am your sister. She said right
now your not we can be sisters again when it is all over. No god no please
what are you going to do to me! I started crying saying please No. She lifted
her weight off me enough to spin me around to my back and started rubbing her
ass in my face. It smelt awful like she did not wipe all the way. All I could
smell was the odor of shit. She then said those words I will never forget.
Lisa, Its time for you and I to become joined with one another. She laid down
with her head in my crotch and started licking me forcing my legs open with
her powerful grip. The worse thing was as she was doing it. She was teasing me
licking the sides sucking on my lips, like a person would to make it more
intense. I frantically tried to get her off me. Nevertheless, she secured her
legs under the opening of the bedpost and the bed. You know that wood rail
that separates the bed from the wood for about 12 inches or less. Well I could
not budge. She said I am not getting up until you make me cum. No way in hell
I am going to eat you out you'll have to kill me.

She then said if your not going to eat me maybe Jacky would! No, you would
not. I could go pick him up from school. OK I said I will do it just do not
ever Touch him ever or I will tell about this. If you leave him alone, I will
not. Sister you better do a damn good job then. I do not like threats.
However, I will agree. Now eat me. Therefore, I did. She came really fast.
However, would not stop until I did. In all that was the worst part of it.
Cause I was forced to think about her when I came finally. After it was done,
she made out with me on the bed for at least 20 minutes. I knew then things
were going to stay this way. I got used to it quick considering hell now I
kind of like it. I know it sounds sick but, after its been done to you for
seven years you tend to fall in love with being the victim so to speak. Now
its like we are just lovers. It is mutual now. I never wanted that day to
happen to you Jack. Can I ask you something Jack said? Why are you telling me
your secret? I mean you could of told me half that and I would of believed
you. When you left the room tonight she said we should of initiated you. I
told her never. She brung up what I just did and called me a hypocrite and
stormed out. Jack then confronted her for the first time. Ok he said if your
so against it why did you do that to me? Why did you rub my ass on your crotch
until you came? Honestly, I thought she was going to get you anyway. So I beat
her too it thinking at least I would tell you I loved you. In addition, try to
make it seem ok. I was wrong. If I have a choice on having to sleep with a
family member as a lover it would be you. God I should not of said that Lisa
said.

You must be thinking I am going to rape you or something! Lisa this is going
to be the craziest thing I ever said but. Ya know what? If you're going to do
it, do it now. I will not stop you. Part of me just wants it over with. This
was his stand hoping to find out finally if she was going to rape him. He knew
the consequences if she intended too. He was prepared for it somehow. At this
point, he is standing directly in front of his sister so she can easily reach
him. Without a sound, she takes both of his hands into hers. And stands to her
feet. She draws him in towards her. His heart was racing cause somewhere in
the back of his head he thought her true answer was going to be no.

She slowly starts wrapping herself around him. Her hands start slowly rubbing
up his back. Their eyes lock both for their own reasons too afraid to move
them. Jack by now was just swaying to the beat of invisible music. Hoping and
prying that this would be quick. Oddly enough, the one thought crossing his
mind is how he was going to explain in his dark secret's journal that he asked
for this. She never spoke this tension was killing him he wish he knew what
she was thinking but could not get a bead on what she was thinking. It was
weird all she did was smile. As if she had found the Garden of Eden. That
thought made him wince cause he would be Adam and her his Eve. The silence was
enough to drive anyone out of their mind. Nevertheless, he not dare to break
it cause at this moment she was happy best to keep it that way he thought. As
they swayed, she turned him towards the bed and noticed he was inching closer
to it. He new something was going to happen but what was she going to do. It
brought up a very scary question to him. Was their such a thing as a loving
rape?

Her hands started to wonder down to his but she started squeezing it. Then
finally she spoke. Is this what you want? Do you want me to make love to you?
Are you asking me too? Shaking he said I just wanted this fear of waiting for
it to stop. Ever since that day, I had to wonder would it happen again. Jacky
she whispered into his ear. If I do it I will not rape you I will make love to
you! However, this is not why I am here. So calm down cause I want to only do
that if you want me to not like it was put on me. What are you telling me Lisa
I have to know? Jacky I will always protect you in our house anything can
happen. If it is going to happen to you, I want it to be me that does it. If
Eileen comes in here one night, your not going to have any options you will
just do what she says. If faced with it, which would you rather do it to you
her or me. He looked at her and said You Lisa at least you would have mercy.
Nevertheless, I need to know am I choosing?

Jack part of me wants to do things to you right now I know are wrong but if
you lived with Eileen doing it to you this is less of a wrong then that. I
will tell you know if she ever finds out about this talk she will screw you.
Jack you might want to even consider getting out cause she's been wanting you
for a while I think she finally grew board with me. Jack said Maybe we can
just run away together from this place then we would never even have to have
this conversation. Jack if we did I am afraid I might still do it. Why he
replied with her out of our lives it would not be a factor would it?

I might be too late for me I have thoughts you would be scared of. Ya he
replied like I am not now in your arms waiting to see if your going to start
feeling me up again or worse. Would it really be so bad Jack? If you were to
have sex with me. Lisa stop it your going there again you said you wouldn't.
Bet you I am right. Lisa said. About what? I bet you want to have sex with me.
Sis you are sick no way. Prove it she said finally pushing him away making him
fall on the bed. How could I prove something like that?

Pull it out and start playing with it. While your doing it think only about me
if you get yourself off I am right. There is no way in hell I am going to
something like that. Then baby she said taking off her top exposing her tits I
am just going to have to do it another way. Lisa what the fuck are you doing
he said in a panic. She then dropped her panties. Then, climbed on to the bed
over him with a sadistic look in her eyes. No god Lisa please he screamed
shuffling backwards on the bed with his hands only to be stopped by the
headboard. She got on top of him. Saying to him bet you wanna fuck me don't
you. You liked it when I shoved my big tits in your face didn't you. She
placed her crotch over his and started humping and grinding him he was in his
boxers. No, he shouted stop. What's the matter Jacky getting hard fuck no I am
not she then got up and ripped off his boxers climbing off the bed saying well
if your not hard then your dicks got rigamortious setting in. He looked down
It was true he was as hard as a rock. He started crying why don't ya come over
here and finish me off now. No, I made you a promise to tell you. Tonight I
kept it. As far as your dick, I just wanted to prove you do not realize it yet
but you will. You are just as bad as the rest of us. You just were not trained
like we were. I came in here to make it easy for you. Well Now your just gonna
have to take your chances. If you were not such a boy, you would have been a
man and admitted it.

He started screaming admit what? Admit my sister is trying to mind fuck me
like Eileen did to you? How does it feel Lisa to be someone's bitch? You want
this hard cock in your twot here it take it but I am not going to be your
bitch for it. She walked over to him ya know its time you learn a lesson
Jacky. She pushed him down on the bed and started to grab his cock. No stop!
He shouted. What is the matter big boy? You want me to touch it so bad well
here baby that's good baby cum for me cum for Lisa. Stop he shouted she jerked
it faster and faster then grabbed his hair look into my eyes when you cum then
you will know.

No get off Help someone help me he screamed as loud as he could! She had him
pinned he saw her blowing kisses at him say I'm gonna lick your cock real slow
and suck your cum dry. All he could see was those full lips blowing kisses at
him and saying cum for me. Look deep into my face; know it is me that is
making your cock throb. He felt his cock starting to throb. Please God No Lisa
I beg you stop. What is the matter Jacky? I want you baby, don't you want me.
Lisa oh please stop. Oh, god help me. No No No No NO Oh god no. Yes, baby look
in my face as he did theirs eyes locked and He exploded all over her hand and
chest. Good boy she leaned in and kissed on the mouth with her tongue braking
threw his lips and touching his. Now you know Jack! Don't go blaming this on
me. I was out the door; remember you just had to know didn't you. I bet you
never actually thought you wanted it did you. He curled up in the fetal
position on the bed. Believe me jack she said while getting dressed it's a lot
better then Eileen would of done.

You want to know when I am gonna rape you? Never, I will fuck you when you
decide to be honest with your feelings. Even then, Jack when you were five you
liked what was going on. Your trouble always has been you wanted to know. Now
you do Its not about rape not yet. Bet you even got pissed when over the years
I never bothered you. See you think your different don't you? Let me tell you,
your not. Well I will still keep the bitch off you. Nevertheless, be smart.
Delete that diary. Ya I saw threw the door it opens quiet don't it. In
addition, your lock was never very good was it?

His eyes bulged out not realizing she knew. Your next entry before you send it
off should be how when my sister left the room I daydreamed all night about
fucking her. Delete the fucking thing. Alternatively, I will give you to
Eileen. By the way, everyone knows the hidden file trick. That is as old as
grandma's false teeth. Goodnight Jack. Oh ya one more thing. I love you baby
and she blew him a kiss. And shut the door. Jack still in a ball on the corner
of his bed fell asleep.