My Story 56
By Corbin
How life tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman.

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The light of the mind is red. It is a red street,
it never ends, it must be kept to
like a schedule. When it is fine, it is fine.

and the night's hounds flinch from it.
Foxes run under dark cover of leaves;
the glacier trapping everything unused, melts.

Everything natural to us must be learned.
The broken laugh, the branching glance,
the wood beneath the green, embarking skin.

The light of the mind is red. It is a red street,
and a cold home stands at its darkening end,
toward which foxes run through clicking leaves.

			-Meghan O'Rourke 

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"A PART FROM BEING REVERED BY THEIR GYM PEERS, LOOKING good in wife-beater 
undershirts, and having superhot girlfriends, guys who can bench a lot of weight 
usually have one other thing in common: shoulder pain."	Men's Fitness by 
Robert Belley, C.P.T.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! 

I really did laugh out loud when I read the above section in a Men's magazine. 
These types of delusional statements typify allot of what goes thru guys heads. 
They really do think allot of themselves.

In reality, they are mocked and ridiculed behind their back at the gym. They are 
also the most desperate and insecure of the male species. The "shoulder pain" 
comment is true, but who gives a shit, when someone is 
benching/curling/squatting an ungodly amount of weight, they deserve to have 
that broken down body years down the road. And it will break down people! The 
human body is not designed for that kind of abuse.

So anyway, I am often flipping thru Men's magazines because I get a good laugh, 
it also further reinforces my belief that most men are bi-sexual. The first time 
I ventured over to the side of the magazine rack that had all the male-oriented-
so-called "Health" magazines, I was stunned to see a dizzying display of buff, 
hard-bodied men in ad after ad. Why is that odd you ask? Because why would a 
hetero-male want to see page after page of hard, muscled, sweaty and bulked up 
men, mostly semi-naked. 

From my perspective it looks GAY! VERY GAY!

I think that men are infatuated with lesbians because it helps to redirect their 
homosexual desires, if makes men feel safe, so you don't have to confront your 
real desires.

Look guys, it's a no win situation for you. If you loudly proclaim that you will 
never watch "Brokeback Mountain" because of the content and scenes, you are in 
denial and are deep in the closet, thus you are admitting your bi-sexual. If you 
claim you are secure with your masculinity and are willing watch the film, 
"Because it is just a good movie at heart", then you are still bi-sexual.

So what does it mean if Women want to watch "Brokeback Mountain"? To see Jake 
Gyllenhaal you morons! Regardless of what he is doing on the screen!

Okay, here's another observation:

At the gym, it's the loud, brash, gawk-at-women-walking-by hetero men that are 
always pushing, grabbing, playfully punching on one another. Oh they claim it is 
a form of male bonding, but odd that I don't see the gay men in the gym being so 
physical with one another, it's just the "I want everyone in the gym to know I 
am a loud heterosexual man", never mind the fact I love to manhandle my sweaty 
friends in the weight room.

Very gay!

**********

If I was single, and thank god I am not, there is only one place I need go to 
find a date. Go ahead take one guess...

The answer: The Bookstore!

The Bookstore has turned into a socializing Mecca! You have extensive magazine 
racks, music sections, coffee bars, and of course books!

Every time I go there, I get hit on at least half a dozen times, by both sexes.


**********

I had pretty much put what happened with Jenna out of my mind, but I was jolted 
back into the moment when I saw Jenna's car in the parking lot and 
then overcome with a million concerns. 'How should I act around her?' Well, the 
same you as you always have you idiot, my inner voice chastised. Hopefully she 
will calmed down and has worked thru whatever had been eating away at her.

I walked around the check-in desk and off to the left is the weight room, I 
slowed my pace and saw Jenna standing, talking with a couple of other girls. She 
gave me a quick glance, then a simple but barely detectable nod and went back to 
speaking with her companions. It all happened so fast I barely had time to 
give my own response and so I kept on walking, trying not to read too much into 
it. But I failed.

I stood in front of the locker like a zombie, I had zoned out again. The corner 
of my right eye caught an approaching figure, so I went to step back, thinking I 
needed to make room for someone to access the locker next to me. With only a 
brief glance I saw Jenna's face now close to mine as she stood there looking at 
me with a somewhat solemn expression.

My whole body went tense and then I smiled, "You okay?" I asked.

"Sort of, I'm sorry about the other night, I made a fool of myself and I 
shouldn't be angry with you, I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the whole 
marriage thing that is coming down the road."

Wow, although that paragraph does not totally convey her emotions, she was 
relating allot of doubt about getting married.

In what surely drew several bizarre looks, Jenna and I worked out together as 
she spotted me and I her. We spent the rest of the time in the gym talking and 
working out. You see, when you belong to a gym long enough you start to 
understand it's dynamics and clicks, Jenna and I had always flowed in and out of 
different clicks/groups and now we seemed inseparable that evening. (One a side 
note, one thing Jenna and I did share, was a total avoidance with a group of 
people who had become the self-proclaimed 'hard core, endurance training' class, 
whatever the fuck that means. Well, I know what it means, it's a class that is 
lead by some ex-soldier boy who the gym hired to whip people into some crazy 
cardio shape. They run laps around the building and do all sorts of crazy 
exercise routines. While this class is open to all who dare venture, only a 
small number of about ten people attend on a regular/religious basis. They 
developed this snot nose attitude a few months later, believing that they were 
taking cardio to some new level, and anyone that didn't join was weak and 
inferior. Someone in the class hinted that I should attend the class, but I gave 
a smirk and said 'No' emphatically, that was weeks and weeks ago, Jenna had also 
turned them down. Since then we don't get so much as even an acknowledging nod 
in passing, I guess they feel snubbed. So now that Jenna and I are a pair at the 
gym, we go out of our way to show up those asses, making it clear that 
while they have their little click, Jenna and I can out bench, lift, squat and 
run the lot of them. Hmm, maybe I'm the one with the ego? Maybe, but I don't go 
around forming little fucking clicks and look down on people that don't join 
it.)

Anyway, we finished up and went back to the locker room together to change and 
leave, we walked out to the parking lot and we stood chatting for few minutes. 
We gave one another a long, firm hug

On another side note, it drives Jenna crazy to workout with me. I have no 
schedule and she is very schedule oriented, and by schedule I mean that my 
lifting depends on my mood, I may walk in and feel like doing biceps one day, 
then walk in the next day feel like doing them again, all depends on how my body 
and mind feel. This drives her nuts and she's been trying to get me more 
regimented, but I resist because I like to flow in and out of what turns-me-on 
that day. :-)

********

"He called, the photographer!" Nikki said.

"Who?" I said.

"The photographer from the beach, remember the last day, he came up and asked to 
take our picture." Nikki sat down on the couch and had this upbeat attitude.

"Wow, really." I don't know why I was shocked or maybe I was shocked I had 
forgotten the whole thing.

"Maybe that's who left me a message a couple of days ago..."I kind of rambled to 
myself while pulling out my cell phone.

"You really need to check your messages Corbin." Nikki grasps my wrist.

"I do, only when it's from important people." I smile and wobble my head 
playfully at her. Sure enough, that guy Gary, had left me a message to ask us 
to come by and look at the photos. He asked that we set aside a couple of hours 
to talk.

"Aren't you excited to see how they turned out!" Nikki was all smiles and kept 
hugging me tight as we walked down to her car a few days later.

"Yes, but what does he want to talk about? I mean we are just picking up some 
photos, why does that take a couple of hours?" I tried to relax and eventually 
was able to focus on what the pictures might look like.

His studio is about an hour away, and it's in a very cool part of the city, 
where they have been turning old warehouses into lofts, apartments, and condos. 
Everything still has that old exposed brick feel and it over looks the Tar 
River. The building he gave us directions to has a more formal feel to it, 
almost business like, so it's no surprise to find a very discrete sign hanging 
to the left of a large wooden door which displayed the name of his Studio.

"So maybe he doesn't live here?" I look at Nikki who just shrugs and presses the 
buzzer, we both smile at the old rattling noise it makes, like it's an old bell 
on it's death bead. A couple of bolts unlatch and the door pulls open, it creeks 
tremendously and we are both confused at first, there is this girl standing 
there, maybe twenty years old.

"Hi, I'm Jaden." She says and tells us to come in, "I'm an intern working her at 
Gary's studio."

"I'm Nikki."

"I'm Corbin." 

She has that very artsy look, although she dresses down like I do, she carries 
herself in a very casual, laid back manner. Must be a posture thing you pick up 
in Art School, you put that 'Art' Vide out. I dress down, but I don't put out an 
Art vibe, I just put out a slob vibe. Anyway, we follow her into this amazingly, 
huge loft, with giant windows that wrap around, the sunlight streams in and 
illuminates everything. There is so much stuff, everywhere, I don't know where 
to begin, but it has this chaotic, but organized feel to it all.

It took me a minute to locate Gary, he is sitting in the far left corner hunched 
over a light table sorting thru some pictures. I have never seen so many 
cameras, backdrops, light tables, sets, and photographs are EVERYWHERE. Not just 
photos but gorgeous pictures of every type; candid, formal, weddings, scenery, 
there are awards hanging on the wall and framed covers of magazines that I 
recognize.

Nikki tugs on my shirt sleeve and I turn to see him approaching us and he is 
smiling, his whole white beard seems to move when he smiles.

"Thank you for coming, I think they turned out well. Oh, would you care for 
something to drink? Tea, Coffee?"

"Uh, Tea sounds fine." I say.

"Me too." Nikki says.

Jaden saunters off to retrieve something from a nearby room.

"Here is the whole set that I took at the beach that afternoon." He 
said and removed a stack of 8x10 pictures from the large envelope.

"Wow" I said and Nik and I even smiled at one another because the water, 
sunset and even some of the people brought back memories that were suddenly so 
vivid, like we were indeed right there. The clarity of the pictures was amazing. 

The first picture he revealed that had Nik and I was a close up of the left 
side of my face, I was looking straight out to the ocean. I heard Gary chuckle 
and I looked up, I then realized I had this strange expression on my face.
"I'm just stunned, I didn't even recognize myself at first, I know this sounds 
big headed, but wow, I look damn good." I was floored.

"Lord Nikki" I say as she picks up a picture by the edge and it was one of two 
of us clearly leaning against one another, but her face seems to be leaning 
forward a little more so it takes the center of the picture. I know I rave about 
her beauty but I was speechless, she blew away any model I've ever seen in any 
magazine. There were about five more of us and by the time we were done looking, 
Nikki and I were in tears. The pictures of the two of us were so moving and 
loving, and somehow he captured the spirit of the moment that we both were 
feeling on the beach at that very moment.

"Can we get a copy of these? I mean I'll pay you, I don't care about the cost!" 
Nikki says as she brushes a tear away from her cheek.

Jaden sets down to hot cups of tea in front of us.

"No worries, that's all yours, the entire set."

"What?" my mouth dropped open at his generosity.

"Sure, why not, they turned out wonderful." He said and shrugged.

The phone rang in the far corner and he glanced over his shoulder, "I'm sorry, 
I'll just be a minute or two." He says and stands up to answer the phone.

Nikki looks over at me and says in a hushed tone, "I love these Corbin, I mean I 
LOVE them. I wonder if he would take more of us."

"He would, but you'll need to work out if it's for personal or professional use, 
the fees change depending on several things." Jaden pipes up. So we talk with 
Jaden and she gives us the scoop on some of the work he does, the clients he 
has, and she even takes the time to walk us around and explain 
some of the stories behind a few of the pictures hanging on the walls.

Nikki takes me by the hand and pulls me to a series of black and white photos, 
they are of two women that are standing or sitting in various poses, mostly they 
are in some form of intimate embrace, the most striking aspect is that they are 
nude. Yet the angles are done so tastefully giving them a beautiful, artistic 
quality, the nudity blends in perfectly.

I look over at Nikki and she is staring at me, 'uh oh' I think, she has this 
serious look on her face, she then nods very slowly 'yes' and my heart is racing 
because I know what she is thinking and I am beginning to panic and get all 
twitchy, biting on my lips and fidgeting my hands.

"I uh, I don't know, we have to talk more about this." I say in a stern voice.

"Okay." Nikki sighs and squeezes my hand reassuringly.

"Sorry about that!" He says and is walking back towards us, he waves a hand back 
to where we were sitting. So I'll cut to the chase, the rest of the conversation 
was about some offers for Nikki and I to do some modeling, some required 
contracts to be signed and others were one-off things.

"Gheesh here we go again." I groan and look over at a trash can on the sidewalk 
while I consider throwing the list of offers away. Nikki doesn't say a word, she 
knows its better to let me just vent, "Same old shit, bikini and fitness crap!" 
I sit in the passenger seat and flip thru the contact information, "So freaking 
boring, hours wasted, getting all pumped up so I can pose in some spandex while 
holding weights or posing on some workout machine."

"They're not all like that." Nikki says and rubs my shoulders.

"Yeah." I mumble and pick out the two or three that were generic types of 
modeling and allowed me to wear a decent amount of clothes. Nikki was in the 
same boat, sorting thru this stuff is a pain, I know allot of women that would 
be on cloud nine and bursting at having any of these offers, but not me.

"Look Corbin, forget about that stuff, you and I need to get some more photos of 
just the two of us." 

"Nik, those pictures you pointed at, that is NOT COOL with me." I shove the 
pictures back into the envelope. "I mean what is going thru your head Nik? I 
mean really, posing with no clothes on? Why? Give me a good reason!"

"Corbin!" She says in a fairly urgent way that tells me she has put allot of 
thought into this, and well I am truly damn interested in hearing this, because 
posing nude, even if it's with Nikki and for our own personal use is not 
something I wanted to do, ever!

"Just listen, please! I want to share everything with you, you are my whole 
life, I've never felt this way ever towards anyone, when I saw the two of us 
sitting on the beach it touched me in a way I've never felt before. I 
want more of that with you, I want to look at pictures of us and remember those 
moments for the rest of our lives!" Nikki started getting teary, which of 
course caused me to cry a little as well.

"Nik, we are talking about posing in the nude! I've never done that!"

"Neither have I! I'm nervous too, but let's have him take some more 
formal pictures of the two of us and then if we feel comfortable enough to take 
the next step then we will ask him, okay? Please!" Nikki has such an urgent tone 
that I felt compelled to at least go along with the other formal pictures.

"Okay" I sigh, "Well see what happens."

**********

Also Gary gave us a pair of extra tickets to the opening of an Art Exhibit, 
which was very nice of him. 

BTW, he was totally professional the entire time we were there.

Nikki and I didn't know anyone at this gala opening, nor the artist that the 
opening was for, so we just did our own thing and enjoyed the food and drinks 
that were catered for the event. I then realized why Gary had those extra 
tickets to just give away, he was the photographer for the event, snapping 
pictures around the parameter, and several of the VIP's. He just smiled and 
nodded when he saw us and went right back to work.

Nikki was in her element, in a formal black dress she looked more stunning then 
any woman there, thus she got many evil, jealous glares from allot of women. I 
studied the way the men eyed us up and it intrigued me to no end, they were 
smart about it and confident. Maybe they thought Nikki and I were just a couple 
of young naive girls fumbling our way thru some impressive gala event. YEAH! 
*SNORT* think what ya' want buddy! We've got your horny little number. 

Guys flirted with me and Nikki, paid us compliments, the attention was thrilling  
and I suppose every woman wants to feel desired. As we always do, Nikki and I 
like to find some private time together, "Gotta go powder my nose." Nikki winked 
at me and I paced a little near the ladies room as I waited on her.

"Excuse me Miss," Came the familiar voice from behind as I was eyeing a modern 
piece of artwork, looks like buckets of paint sloppily splashed on some canvas, 
to some people that's art I guess. I smirked and turned around, "Sorry to bother 
you, I just have to say you are looking extremely sexy in that dress." The woman 
in front of me says.

"Why thank you." I say and smile.

"You here alone?" she asks.

"Not any more." and run a finger thru my blonde hair flirtatiously.

"Mmmm, then mind some company?" She moans and brushes her chest against mine. My 
thin evening gown, which showed allot of my shoulders and cleavage moved a 
little as she pressed in some more. 

"I'm Corbin by the way." I say and run my right hand up and down her waist.

"I'm Nikki." The black haired girl says and runs her hand up and down my waist 
in response. "I'll cut right to the case." 

"Please do." I sigh lustfully.

"I want you in my bed tonight." She whispers.

My mouth drops and a look of shock comes over my face, "I'm not that kind of 
girl!" I protest.

A cocky smirk forms on the woman's lips at my protest, "Before this night is 
over, you will be." 

Nikki and I do little things like that, have these little role playing 
encounters that really spice things up.

*********

Nik and did a few photo shoots with Gary, we showed up with various clothes from 
casual to formal, we did outside shots as well. I really must say, I am so glad 
that we did that, the pictures turned out wonderful. As for Nikki's idea of the 
two of us doing some more 'provocative' shoots, even the 'Nude' thing, I had my 
reservations so Nikki let it go, for awhile at least.

*********

Anyway, we had more important things, like a trip Nikki and I took to Portugal 
to  see some of her relatives that still lived there. Now, I know what your 
thinking, a trip back to Portugal should be fun and exciting, very exotic and 
lots of fun! Huh? Are you people smoking crack? I get too stressed out before 
trip like this to relax.

Half way thru the flight I got ants in my pants and pace up and down the aisle 
way. Then there was the getting settled in that always makes me irritable 
because my daily routine has been disrupted, this was starting to cause some 
irritation on Nikki's part with me. Okay, all that's no big deal and such, we 
definitely started having a good time as the days wore on. But it was when we 
spent the last two days with Nikki's old childhood friend Audrey when tensions 
started to rise. 

Specifically, it was the last night out and we all had too much to drink and 
went out dancing.

I had been watching Nikki and Audrey dance and would rather watch because I 
don't consider myself a great dancer, I guess I am, but I am my own worst 
critic. Nikki came off the dance floor while Audrey platonically danced with 
some guy, Audrey can barely speak a lick of English so there wasn't much in the 
way of conversation going on between she and I anyway.

Nikki got me off my butt and pushed on my shoulders guiding me onto the center 
of the dance floor, and then very gracefully moved around to the front of me. 
The music's slow beat seemed to radiate from all directions as she pulled me in 
and nudged her knee between my legs. I looked over and Audrey was still dancing 
with that guy, he was really putting the dance moves on her, pulling her in 
close, Audrey looked like she was having a good time. Of course having my 
beautiful girlfriend dancing with me was all the motivation in the world to get 
into the moment. We deflected several guys that attempted to dance with us, I 
was only focused on Nikki now, I then felt her leg push deeper between my 
thighs, her short dress exposed most of her legs, so the next thing I 
felt was her bare thigh brushing up against the silk crotch of my panties. 'Oh 
shit' I felt vulnerable and weak.

My own dress was fairly short and Nikki wanted me to move into a similar 
position and now I *was* in fact getting excited, sexually aroused excited as I 
felt Nikki's inner thighs squeeze my bare thigh and I squeezed hers back. 
Temptations, thoughts of touching and being touched as I danced, I could feel my 
nipples growing hard and a growing warmth below in my stomach. I loved this rush 
of desire. My head felt fuzzy as I realized that most of the feelings I was 
having were rooted between my legs, that I felt wet, that an insistent pulse 
throbbed and intensified when I looked up and our eyes met. Wow, what a potent 
combination, alcohol, this sexy girl dancing with me. My heart began to hammer 
and I felt a blush creep up my face.

Nikki started first, her hips began to rotate and she was grinding her crotch 
against my leg, lightly at first and then I could feel pressure increase. I was 
a bit alarmed that I could feel the dampness in her panties, not unusual, but I 
was feeling a bit exposed out on the dance floor. I mimicked her pose and move 
my left hand to clutch the back of her neck while my right hand located at the 
base of her back pulled her toward me. I was surprised that I was now doing the 
same thing as Nikki, pushing my own crotch against the tense muscles in her 
upper leg and I guess she was feeling my own damp spot that had formed. It was 
somewhat consoling that the area of the floor was dimly lit and I felt like we 
could get away with this, although we were drawing a significant number of 
admirers as we danced.

I wasn't shocked, surprised yes, but I was getting caught up in the moment and 
wondered how much further it would go? The more we gyrated our bodies against 
one another, the tighter we held on, we were still mostly standing but it was 
probably evident that we were dirty-dancing with one another, literally humping 
each other on the dance floor under the guise of a very sensual dance move. 
Nikki smelled wonderful, she was a sexy creature and the sweat was pouring off 
our bodies as we moved into one another. I carefully choose the phrase 'Move 
into' because it wasn't just my aroused state between my legs, but our breasts 
were directly pressing against one another and that added to our sexual lust for 
one another.

My alarms went off again when I felt a pair of hands softly grip my shoulders 
from behind, I jerked my head to the left and Audrey's face was there, her mouth 
leaning against my ear "You gorgeous," Audrey moaned, her thick Portuguese 
accent coming thru, her head dipped down and she started kissing my neck, the 
warmth of her breath felt good as she started to sway her body behind me, she 
got into the rhythm that Nikki and I had started. We all settled into a slow, 
but very sensual motion of our hips, with me sandwiched in the middle! "You 
body..." I didn't understand the last word, she had reverted back to her native 
language, but her hands made up for the translation by gripping my hips and I 
felt her crotch push into my butt as her fingers pulled me toward her. 

Audrey's presence was a bit concerning, I wasn't completely comfortable doing 
this with another person, even if she was an old friend of Nikki's. Bending my 
knees and moving my hips around was giving me one hell of a workout, the sweat 
was rolling off my body and I have to admit it was allot of fun to be dancing 
with one another. Audrey seemed satisfied to keep her focus on me, she stayed 
behind me while Nik and I kept our dancing mostly face to face, we had changed 
position a little bit but our bodies continued to rub against one another, Nikki 
periodically would insert her upper thigh back in-between my legs causing my 
short dress to rise up dangerously high. Audrey then did something that irked me 
allot, she dragged her finger nails up the outside of my thighs, catching the 
hem of my dress and pulled it up until she reached my hips and I was practically 
flashing everyone, but she let my dress drop almost immediately but the damage 
had been done in my mind. Allot of people, I think, got a sneak peak at my 
lavender colored panties. Thankfully I wasn't in a thong, but still, the 
gleefully expression of several men and women told me that had enough to know I 
was grinding my crotch against Nikki's upper thigh, although I'm sure they 
suspected as much anyway.

There isn't much more to say, a few more seconds of dancing and I think that I 
just might have had an orgasm on that dance floor. How strange the timing of all 
this as well, the song ended a few seconds later and we awkwardly staggered away 
from one another, Nikki's hand pulled on my arm and I followed her off the 
floor, Audrey immediately behind us. I could tell Nikki was irritated about 
something, but because I was still reeling from what we had just done on the 
dance floor, it took me a minute to catch on. Nikki reached over with her left 
hand pulled me into a hug, I eagerly hugged her back, now I know, she was 
irritated with Audrey, not me. Nikki can get very jealous at times, and she was 
not happy with her friend practically groping me while we were all dancing.

The night ended with Nikki and I back at our hotel room, we were both tired but 
very emotional. I rolled my shoulders and her fingers pushed along my strap, my 
entire dress dropped to the floor as if my body was rejecting it.

Things were happening all at once, Nikki was in front of me, then moving to  
the edge of the bed. I placed my hands on my hips, I looked down at my light 
lavender panties a matched set with the bra, of course it gently hugged the 
curve of my ass, I stuck one leg out in front of the other. Later Nikki told me 
that Audrey was intimidated by me, which I find hard to believe.

Nikki didn't say a word, she didn't have to, her eyes and look of pure 
determined lust told me all I needed to know as she slowly stepped toward me.

"Come here," said Nikki somewhat awkwardly, I followed her and in two steps the 
back of her knees touched the edge of the bed. With her left hand, Nikki gently 
tugged on my arm and I stepped in closer while Nikki sat down, she looked up and 
stroked my flat, toned stomach, her fingers moved along the muscles that edged 
my abs. My breathing changed and got ragged, her touch does that to me, fingers 
roamed over my stomach with that familiar and belonging caress, like my muscles 
were her property! "Letting another person touch your body is unthinkable." 
(more on the meaning behind that comment a bit later, but yes it has to do with 
our night out with Audrey).

Nikki stood up and we were face to face again, and then her lips pressed against 
mine and whispered, "I love you." 

"I love you too." I sighed and we kissed more, the intensity grew and her
is now in my mouth causing a vibrant, sexual feeling raced up my body.

That reassuring 'I love you' from Nikki was powerful, I needed to hear that, it 
was always a confidence booster for me. Nikki slipped to my right to give me 
access to the edge of the bed as my right knee came up and eased down into the 
soft blanket. Nikki's hands stayed busy, roaming over my hips from behind and 
then over my back, her fingers ran along the muscles that lined my spine and 
found the clasp on my bra, soon it was unhooked and my breasts swung free. It 
felt wonderful, her hands reached around and were cupping my swinging breasts, 
gently feeling their weightiness, my nipples slowly became hard as she rubbed 
her palms against them. Nikki stopped and pulled back she then griped at the 
waistline of my panties and began to pull, I was now totally nude.

My mouth fixated in an open position, my tongue felt like it was hanging out of 
my mouth as I seemed to pant. Nikki was behind me kissing my butt cheeks, 
closing in on my most precious object of desire. There was a very patient and 
cautious tone in everything, Nikki and I had become more then best friends, she 
was my lover, my confidant, my life. Everything we tried in our love making was 
about establishing trust and breaking through new barriers.

I needed to move, I wanted to rest more of my weight onto my right knee which 
meant breaking from Nikki's soft kisses on my ass, but the second before I went 
to move, my lover's strong tongue licked the length of my slit, all the way up 
my butt. I shuddered and a long deep moan rose out from my chest, even with 
the thought of Nikki lavishing my pussy with so much oral love, I pulled away 
and sat down. Nikki immediately slipped the straps off her dress and then peeled 
her thong off her hips. The images blur a little now, I am leaning back 
while Nikki climbs on the bed to my left. I immediately began admiring Nikki's 
beautiful, firm breasts, they were real all right and perfect. Mine were a 
bit larger but I had to wish for perfect breasts, they would be Nikki's. 

I arched my back, lifting my chest, Nikki's face moved down and I 
watched as she extended her pink tongue licking a wet, trail around my erect 
nipple. She had pulled that nipple into her mouths, sucking and gently chewing 
on my breasts, alternating between the two. I was no longer in control of my 
mind and body, my head fell back as my eyes closed, I simply existed in a state 
of increasing pleasure. I was moaning as loud as wanted with no care or worries 
about who would hear me.

I lifted my head back up and Nikki's face was moving back up, her eyes soft and 
glassy eyed, our mouths were together again in a very hot kiss. Nikki pushed on 
my shoulder, I felt like she wanted me to lay back so I started to recline while 
her left hand moved down toward my crotch, her middle finger gently moving up 
and down my wet slit. Nikki's face was next to mine and she gave me the 
most lovingly warm smile as we began to kiss some more. Slowly she pulled away 
and moved down between my legs, gently blew over my vulva, her tongue touched 
and licked deeper into my lips below and I felt the tremor of the orgasm to come 
shudder thru me. I closed my eyes and rocked my hips to the beat of Nikki's 
tongue I felt a rush of blood to my head and a powerful orgasm hit me, Nikki 
continued to lick me throughout the whole process, only backing off when I 
grabbed her hair and gently pulled her away.

I lay spent for several moments catching my breath. I could feel the sweat that 
was fresh on my skin, enough collected that small droplets ran off my face and 
the rest of my body. How do I describe the events that followed, everything 
seemed to flow in a natural progression.

Nikki was climbing up my body like a stalking cat, the love of my life 
was there looking into my eyes and kissing me. I lay in a state of bliss and 
blinked, sweat trickled down my neck and I focused on Nikki's face, but Nik's 
right hand was back to stroking my stomach and thighs, now she was caressing the 
area around my sex, teasing me for something more to come. My lips formed and 
'O' as I felt the pleasure rise in my body. Soon my lips brushed and fresh 
excitement rose up in my belly without effort we renewed our kissing lips kissed 
and sucked and then our tongues joined in the fray, searching and 
curling, slippery wet saliva coated our mouths in a sloppy kiss.

I remember moving, Nikki pushing me, I ended up on all fours, "Oh my god" I 
grunted out loud when Nikki's mouth was now pleasuring my pussy and ass, the 
stimulation seemed more then I could handle. I propped myself up on 
my arm while my right hand massaged my sweaty breasts and pulled on my nipples 
to the rhythm of my lovers tongue, shit does she ever get tired?! 

Nikki was now telling me to stick my ass up into the air 'higher', she began 
teasing my ass with her tongue and fingers, something I never thought I would be 
into, but here I was, discovering a new fetish.

"Fuck, oh fuck." I said out loud, a felt a bit of drool fall from my lower lip 
as my body shuddered, Nikki had a finger at the entrance to my tight puckered 
anus, testing it's resistance, and my heart raced at this new sensation. We've 
teased each other's ass before, but never tried penetration. 'How would it 
feel?' I wondered, but with the assistance of sweat and saliva I felt her finger 
slowly enter me, my hands gripped the sheets tight and I moaned out a series of 
curse words. Soon she had a finger from her other hand pushing into my vagina, 
her thumb working on my clit now caused me to exploded into an orgasm. I 
couldn't' support my weight and collapsed. My groans of pleasure never ceased, 
Nikki kept up the pace, her fingers knuckle deep kept up the pressure of double 
Penetration, I wanted more and curved my back as much as I could to give her 
full access. 'Oh god' I ached for it now and rotated my ass into the air as she 
continued to drill those two fingers in and out of me.

Face down my body writhed and convulsed until I was exhausted, slowly and gently 
she removed her fingers and began to massage my quivering ass cheeks. I laid 
still, taking deep breaths and waited to see what was next. 

"Roll over lover." Nikki said, she wasn't asking me, but telling me, I gladly 
did, but it was an effort as I groaned, my weak arms pushing me onto my back.

"I hope you saved a little energy for that mouth of yours, cause your going to 
need it." Nikki smiled. I smiled in return and ran my tongue over my lips 
invitingly.

"Bring it on." I added.

Nikki's eyes squinted as she gave me a big smile of joy, she carefully turned 
around and backed her ass up to my face, framing my head between her strong 
thighs she lowered her pussy onto my mouth. I licked her to about three or four 
strong orgasms and then she moved her butt until I was now licking her ass, 
that caused her to orgasm a second time.

I tilted my head and went back to her clit, her whole body jumped and was off my 
face a split second later. "God I'm so sensitive down there now." She smiled at 
me. 

She glistened with sweat and let her own exhausted body collapse on top of me. 
We held one another in a lazy embrace before finally drifted off to sleep. I 
awoke sometime in the middle of the night, I found myself on my side. I blinked 
a few times, I was on my left, Nikki was facing me and right hand was draped 
over my hips, cupping my left butt cheek. I wasn't even feeling like the same 
person, I was sexually alive more then I could ever remember.

I glance up and notice a ceiling fan slowly spinning, the smell of sex and sweat 
is very strong in the room and mirror across from the bed reflected further 
validation of had transpired this very night. God it was an amazing reflection 
to behold.

((((To give a little background on 'those' tensions I alluded to earlier, you 
see as the evening with Audrey came to a close, almost immediately after we had 
gone out dancing, Audrey asked if Nik and I were 'open' spending the night with 
her, back at her place. 

"What?" I asked Nikki. My girlfriend looked at me and she had a very disturbed 
expression on her face, like she was irritated with what her good friend had 
just said.

"She wants us to stay with her." Nikki said.

"Is that all?" I asked, because even though I was learning Portuguese from 
Nikki, my level of comprehension was a bit rough and it was obvious that Audrey 
was insinuating something that I wasn't fluent enough to pick up on.

"Not exactly." Nikki sighed and got all twitchy, "She asked if we would come 
back to her place to spend the night, I think she wants the three of us to 
spend some more time together, privately that is." Nikki looked away and 
fingered the napkin that her drink rested on. She was telling the truth, I could 
just tell.

Audrey was looking down at her drink, she knew Nikki and I were talking about 
her proposition, and the more we talked, the more there seemed a chance it might 
really happen. "Drink?" Audrey says in a decent attempt at English, waving her 
hand at our empty glasses. Nikki nods yes for the both of us, not that we really 
wanted more drinks, but we did need some time alone to talk and Audrey could was 
giving us that chance. Honestly, I was still hot and horny from the dance, I was 
aching for some sex and Audrey's offer was tempting, but come on, I haven't lost 
my mind! I don't know anything about Audrey and where she has been! My only real 
plan was to get Nikki back to the hotel room for another round of our incredible 
love making.

When Audrey was out of ear and eye range I looked back over at Nikki who was 
shaking her head 'no' and still looking down at her napkin. My right hand 
reached over and softly rubbed my girl's upper thigh, her skin was so soft and 
smooth, I could still feel traces of sweat from our workout on the dance floor.
"You okay?"

"Just a little disturbed that she would suggest something like that." Nikki 
shrugged. Nikki didn't have to say 'No', I already knew how she felt, the mere 
suggestion of someone sharing our bed makes her almost physically ill. It was 
out of the question for sure. Nikki looked over and smiled at me, her left hand 
snaked under the table and rubbed my thigh in return as she leered up at me 
seductively.

"Well, I've thought it over some," I leaned in close to her face, "and you 
are absolutely," I kiss her on the lips, "the only girl I want to fuck tonight." 
Nik moaned and kissed me on the lips again, we both smiled and gave one another 
a passionate kiss.

"Then let's get back to the room so we can finish what we've started." Nikki 
sighed and gently tugged on my lower lip with her teeth. Audrey returned to the 
table, Nikki said something to Audrey in Portuguese, something to the effect of 
being 'Tired' and 'Late', a feeling of relief swept over me. The taxi pulled up 
in front of where Audrey lived and we all got out to say our goodbye's before 
Nik and I headed back to the hotel. Nik gave Audrey a firm hug and that made 
promises to stay in touch, I stepped in and gave Audrey a hug and felt her press 
the entire length of her body against mine, and the hug continued, much 
differently from how she had hugged Nikki.

"Miss you" She said in her best English and I got weak in the knees when she 
pressed her crotch directly into mine, I wasn't totally over the effects of the 
night or the dancing we had shared. In a moment of uninhibited emotion I pressed 
my lower body back against hers and she squeezed her arms around me tighter, 
then kissing me on the neck. I got caught up in the moment and kissed her on the 
cheek as we pulled away. There was no mistaking the look in her eyes, she wanted 
to kiss me and part of me wanted to kiss her, but better forces were pulling me 
away and so I took a step back.

When we got back to the hotel room the emotions were still so raw, and although 
we were both exhausted, there was this desire to make love that I can't 
recall ever having with her.))))

Well now, back to that last night. I looked over at my wonderful, beautiful 
girlfriend and smiled. Nikki rolled over to her right and reached around with 
her left hand to stroke my cheek as I spoke, "Audrey pissed me off when we were 
dancing, putting her hands all over you like that."

"I wasn't expecting that, I don't hold it against her she's a nice girl. But 
there is no way in hell I will ever share you with anyone." I say 
and grip Nik's thigh thru the sheets. My last comment seemed to really please 
Nik as she scoots up close to me and has a big smile on her face.

"And no one gets this close to you but me." Nikki said as we hugged one another. 

The complex emotions that we work thru never seem to end at times. As I've 
already said, this wasn't the first or the last time Nikki and I would have to 
deal with offers and even subversion on the part of other people. But that's 
part of being committed to one another, being strong and supportive for your 
partner, working thru issues that confront every relationship.

"I was just disappointed that Audrey would suggest something like that." 
Nikki sighed and her eyes drifted off.

"People change, it's been a long time since you've been around her." I hug my 
girl close to me.

"Yeah, just kind of screws up allot of childhood memories for me, hard for me to 
connect the Audrey of now, to the one I knew growing up."

Innocence lost I guess, Nikki is very pure in her thoughts and intentions, she 
is a very driven person and places high expectations on friends and family. When 
Audrey crossed a line it really did crush Nikki in many ways. Damn, and you 
people thought I was the prude in the relationship!