My Story 50 By Corbin How life tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman. ********** "Dance as if no-one were watching, sing as if no-one were listening" ********** What the heck! I have developed this irritating tick/twitch on my left lower eyelid. It doesn't impair my eyesight, but it's so fucking annoying! How retarded, I have to squint so that it's not noticeable, which only draws more attention to it. This has been going on for weeks now but I've been reluctant to go to the doctor because I'm hoping it will just go away. Sometimes it stops, but most of the time my lower eyelid will just spontaneously begin twitching, involuntarily! Just great, this is all I need. I can place my finger over my lower eyelid and sometimes feel the nerve or muscle or whatever-the-fuck actually spasm under the skin. I bet if I stick my finger in an electrical socket and give myself a good jolt the little fucker will stop twitching. Well, not a good idea, since it might also stop my heart....thus killing me...moving right along to plan B. But there is no plan B, so I guess the twitch goes on. ********** Several months ago Sharon and I were sitting in this deli eating lunch when I was caught doing something that I often criticize guys for. "What are you doing?" Sharon leaned across the table and whispered. "Huh?" Squeaked out of my mouth feebly and I jerked my head to look at her. "Huh?" Her pretty face mocked me with this goofy look. "Nothing." I groaned but I knew I had been caught and what made the moment very uncomfortable was the realization that my whole head had proceeded to turn and follow this girl as she walked by us and up to the counter. But I didn't stop there, after watching her walk by I continued to simply stare. She was very attractive, but it was the tight, baby blue yoga pants she had on that seemed to command my attention. So there I sat, ogling this girl's ass blatantly, but I can now admit that it was one of the most beautiful butt's I have ever seen, period! I can say that now without shame, but back then I just looked down at my sandwich and blushed a little, a bit ashamed and feeling very awkward, perhaps uncomfortable in the moment with my own sexuality. Had I really just openly checked out another girl? And I did so totally without thinking about it? But why am I surprised by that? ********** I rush into my room and my senses are assaulted with a wonderful aroma coming from the bathroom, I smell Nikki's body wash, shampoo and perfume, it's of of lavender and pear. She's already out of the shower as I also observe a faint, wispy trail of steam floating out of the cracked door to the bathroom. "That was quick!" I say as I start pulling some clothes out of my drawer and laying them out on the bed. No reply from Nikki but then the door opens and she steps out, her hair is still semi damp, but she is wearing this dark chocolate, very sheer, form fitting dress that stops several inches above her knees. Her skin, has a radiant glow, she smiles and slides the palm of her hands down her waist and hips. "You like it?" She turns and looks at a mirror outside a closet across from the bathroom. "Wow Nik, your gorgeous." I say, and I know my expression is saying allot more. "That dress is amazing on you." She wasn't wearing a bra, and she doesn't need to, her breasts are perfectly firm and round, and it clings to her hips and butt just enough that you can tell she is wearing a thong. "You're the most beautiful women in the world." "Thank you love." Nikki sighs and turns to me, her left hand reaches up and caresses my right cheek, I lean in and we kiss for a good minute but I don't touch her for fear of wrinkling her dress and getting sand and sun lotion on her. "Your opinion is the only one that I value." And now I'm blushing and smiling my big goofy smile. "I'll get showered." and walk into the bathroom. I glance over my shoulder and catch Nikki eyeing me as I peel off my bikini, she stops applying her lipstick and smiles, and then goes back to applying a light coating on her lips. I step into the shower and close the curtain a little, but leave it parted some making it easier to peak my head around and talk with Nikki. "Do we have plans tonight? Did you want to do something? I don't have any thoughts, just thinking out loud." I say as I shut the water off now and reach for a towel which Nikki quickly hands me. "There certainly are plans later tonight, you and I will be making love again, that is a definite." She sets the brush down and reaches over, gliding her fingernails lover my cheek before leaving the bathroom, "Was there something else?" she says after disappearing out of view. "Nope, sounds perfect." I say and realize I have this faint smile on my mouth now. I put on my own dress, but it is much more subdued then Nikki's, it has some colorful prints and comes almost down to my knees. It's not as form fitting but still shows off my body, besides, one does not try and match Nikki in the looks department where clothing is concerned. "Hmmmm" Nikki hums as she walks up next to me while I brush out my stupid, straight hair, always freaking straight, not a wave or curl to be seen anywhere, "You look so hot I might want to make love to you right now." "Thank you." I smile and place the brush down as we embrace in gentle hug. ********* "Wow, you two look amazing." Kelly says, standing up from the couch as we ascend the stairs to the top level. "Thank you" it almost comes out in unison. It's always nice to unwind late in the day, everyone is back from the beach, showering up and we uncork a bottle of wine to help us relax. Nikki doesn't say a word but begins to rub my shoulders from behind. No doubt about it, Nikki and I are now so comfortable around one another we extend small physical touches of affection without even realizing it. Well, apparently a little party was in the works as a few guys from a house down the street started to show up. I was hoping it wasn't going to get wild and not because it was in Sharon's house, it was because we (Nikki and I) typically are not like that. "Freaking great." I moan "Let's go grab a bite to eat and come back?" I say. So we drive down to Fishbones Sunset Grill to kill time, snack and have a few drinks. Unfortunately the place was pretty busy, but that's that chance you take around 6:00 to 9:00 every evening during the summer months, every place will be packed. We had to park across the street, which meant as we waited for a break in traffic we had to endure several comments from guys passing by in cars and jeeps that try to get our attention. Finally! we make it to the hostess stand and put our name down and head to the bar located off the back of the restaurant, there is also a connected pier. A gentle breeze and setting sun make for a beautiful time. There is still a threat of thunderstorms as dark clouds roll in and then roll out, but for the most part the rain holds off and the sun keeps peaking out. Guys and girls eye us as we make our way up to the bar, I suppose it would have been safer to just hang out at the house, but Nikki and I are having such a good time together that I am totally enjoying the moment. Some guys clear some seats for us, and we are almost instantly inundated with men buying us drinks and trying to hit us up for small talk. But we don't stay at the bar, we each get our choice of drinks and head down the pier to enjoy the sunset. Even while sitting and enjoying dinner, which was very good by the way, the waitress would come over and ask if we would join some table of guys or allow some guy at the bar to buy us drinks, 'No thank you, no thank you AND no thank you.' I guess the guy at the bar was hoping the two of us would join him at the bar and later at his house? Nah, he just wanted to talk about sports maybe? The drive back was short and it's only a mile or two back to the house, but by then it had started to rain a little, "That figures." I groan as I watch ran drops splatter on the glass. "It's okay." Nikki sighs with a smile and looks over at me, her hand gently rubbing my knee and then creeps up my thighs making me squirm with excitement, just her touch alone can do that, amazing! As we approach the house it would appear that the party is still going on, and probably will keep going on for sometime as it's only about 9:30ish. "Well, might as well go in and get comfortable." I say. It's still hot and humid out, but once inside of the house it feels like an ice box because of the A/C. We head up the stairs to the second floor where Nikki and I sleep, I stop in the dark hallway and grab Nik's arm. "What's wrong." She asks urgently leaning into me. "Nothing, just have to get into social-mode." I smile and close my eyes and take a deep breath. "Poor baby." Nik says jokingly and rubs my shoulders. "Do you really want to hang out up stairs with everyone? If not I can grab a couple of bottles of wine and we can go out on the second floor deck." "I'd like that." Nikki says "But we really should make our introductions because you know how Sharon is, she'll blow her top if she thinks we are snubbing them." Nikki's right and I roll my eyes, "Just for a second." I smile as she continues to rub my arms. All the girls are here and there are about ten or eleven guys, we were quickly sized up by everyone in the house as we ascend the steps. Nikki gets most of the attention, with her Portuguese heritage she has that exotic look that all American men dream of dating. "Where have you been?" Sharon seizes me by the arm and pulls me into a corner of the large third floor living area. "We got a bite to eat and now we are back." I shrug. "Oh" Sharon relaxes her attitude some. "Oh" I snap, "What's the problem?" I cock my head off to the side, it's pretty obvious I am getting my back-up defensively. "Nothing, just I need your help, you're the most responsible friend I have." Sharon groans, and then looks up at me grave concern, "You and Nikki doing okay." That switch on Sharon's part caught me off guard, to suddenly be so supportive and concerned about Nikki and I, I think I even tear up a little. "Yeah, we're doing wonderful Sharon, thank you." I say. "I'm glad, you know I love you." Sharon says. "I love you to." I say. (You poor guys don't have that kind of support do you? Probably something like 'Hey bro, you and your girl cool now? You know I'm there for ya' man, cool?' You guys are really such dorks talking like that. But I say that in a loving way.:) Okay, Sharon has been dealt with, but Nikki is having to fend for herself, she has three guys around her now, but she has a very accessible personality, although I know you may find that hard to believe. Nikki is a very confident woman, she can joke and banter lightly with women and men, which makes her very approachable and popular, but getting to know the true person that is Nikki, well, let me count myself as being one of the few with such access. I bring her a glass of wine and we make casual conversation, I can see the little mental wheels spinning on the part of the guys when they learn Nikki and I are a serious couple. Looks of consufion, suspicion, 'your joking!' 'It even further puzzles them that Nikki and I dated men, that we never had a bad experience with a boyfriend, and that we are still on great terms with our prior boyfriends. While Nikki is talking to one guy in particular I manage to slip away and step out onto the back deck that overlooks the pool, there some people out there but I find a nice quiet corner and lean against the railing. There is a faint mist of rain coming down but it doesn't bother me too much. "You ever worry about your girlfriend falling for a guy again? Or another girl for that matter." I hear a man's voice ask who is has suddenly appeared to my left. "Nah, it's all about trust, I can't function any other way. If she finds someone else it would devastate me, but I trust her to be honest about stuff like that. The truth usually comes out in the end anyway, so why spend time agonizing over that." I give a slight shrug with my shoulders. "I'm Tim by the way." And he extends a hand, which I lightly shake. "Corbin." "Your girlfriend seems to be getting on very well with my friend, that's why I asked what I did." He says while giving a 'knowing' look as if he does in fact know something that I do not. I glance over my left shoulder and see Nikki talking to this rather tall, handsome guy, they are laughing a little and talking about something. A small twinge of jealousy fires thru me as I watch and allow some doubt to creep into the back of my mind, but I then smile. I look over at him and back out over the street, "She gets along with almost everyone very well." I say and still have a smile on my face. He may know his friend but he doesn't know Nikki, just a few seconds of observation and I could see how Nikki leaned away from the guy a little bit when he would get too close. I can understand how he thinks his friend is scoring points with Nik, putting the moves on her I guess, but while I observed Nikki's relations to be friendly, they were also guarded. Someone grows a brain and turns the stereo on, the soft sounds of 'Cool Change' by the Little River Band come out thru the speakers on the deck. Tim leans forward on the railing next to me so I guess I'm going to have to make more small talk. "Can I ask another question, a very personal question." He asks with this sly smirk. "No." I sigh. "Oh come on!" He rolls his body so all of his weight is now resting on his left elbow, he's trying to get a really good look at me now. "You can ask, but all you will get is 'No comment'." I chuckle a little. Tim and I both glance over and watch the guy hand Nikki a card, looks like a business card of some kind and now he has that knowing smirk on his face again. We watch as Nikki's head tilts down, seems to study the card for a second or two and then looks up and smiles, her head shakes from side to side 'no'. But Mr. Smooth is not giving up so easy he continues to talk and raise the card toward her a little bit more. Nikki just has this faint smile on her mouth and takes the card from him, Tim takes a deep breath and I get the feeling he is pleased with himself, or pleased that it appears his friend is doing very well for himself. "Let's see how it went." Tim said. Nikki gives the guy a friendly wave and turns to head out to the deck where I am, she closes the door behind her and walks toward me. "Hey love." I say as she approaches. "Gheesh" Nikki sighs, rolling her eyes in exhaustion as she walks toward me, she is still holding the card in her right hand and I watch as she balls it up and flips it over the deck railing, now I am the one smiling. She leans in and gives me a hug, then stands off to my left, we wrap our hands around each other's backs when Nik comments, "Nice guy." I just laugh and point at Tim, "That's his buddy Tim." "Well" Nikki raised her left eyebrow and shrugs like she could care less, "Nice and all, but needs to tone down the 'on the prowl' vide. Insisted I take his card, but as you can see I have no use for it." Now I am giving Tim this big knowing smile. "I'll pass along that tip." Tim says. I squeeze Nikki's midsection, "Want another drink?" I ask. "Yeah, but I'm coming with you, no offense Tim!" Nikki says and smiles. "None taken! None at all." He says as I catch his polite gaze turn to one of male lusting as we turn to head back inside. Now does that last comment sound conceded, self-absorbed? How about reality, or FACT! Being on the receiving end of daily 'stares', 'one-liners' and on, and on, I have allot of experience by now. I don't seek this attention and neither does Nikki, if we did, we both would strap on our bikinis and take a walk down the beach every day! But we don't, we throw on tee shirts, and shorts before going for a walk, so as to dress down. "Here!" I say and open the fridge, I hand a large bottle of wine to Nikki. Don't get me wrong, the party seemed lively and inviting, and I really do enjoy kicking back and having a good time with everyone during these parties, but the two of us seemed like we were setting off on our own little adventure and were definitely acting 'thick as thieves'. Down the stairs we snuck, "Where are you two going?" a chorus of questions came at us. Okay, so we didn't exactly sneak out as I had planned, but we simply excused ourselves and indicated we would be back shortly (ha, yeah right). Thru a small guest room we went to get to the screened-in porch that overlooked the pool. We each set our bottles of wine down on one of the patio tables, it was kind of dark on the back of the house because all the lights were off save for the underwater pool lights, but our eyes adjusted. "Still so hot out here." Nikki sighed. "Cold front, warm front, whatever, it's still humid as hell." I sighed, although the storm was on it's way out, a thick veil of humidity had started to envelope us. I begin to uncork one of the bottles when I sense Nikki walk up behind us me and rests her hands on my neck, she leans over to kiss me on the shoulder. "Let's go out there." I raise a glass of wine towards a screen door that connects to a deck that runs along the back of the house, I then hand a glass to Nikki. Somehow we get going on politics, don't ask me how, but the next election came up and of course my answer rubs Nikki the wrong way... "I always vote for the challenger, as long as they are semi-competent, follows my thinking that term limits should be mandated." "I disagree," Nikki says, " I think that you have to stick to a set of beliefs that you should follow." "Even if it leads you down the wrong path?" I challenge. "You have to take the good with the bad." Nikki leans against the railing and looks to here right where I am standing. "So you take the bad just to stay within party lines?" I cock an eyebrow and lean forward. "Damn straight." Nikki fires right back as the fireworks start to spark a little between us, which is typical when it comes to these kind of conversations. I just shake my head in despair and smile, Nikki smiles back at me and lowers her head, if it wasn't so dark out here I am sure I could catch her blushing. Some of our arguments get pretty heated, but we let it go this time. "Peace?" I say and stick out my hand. "Peace." Nikki nods and we both laugh a little as we shake hands in a formal manner. There was a moment of quiet as we leaned against the railing and looked out over the pool. We listened to the crickets loudly chirping, like they do after a good rainfall, "That's nice, those summer sounds at night." I sighed as the lights of the pool below reflected upward. "Yeah, yeah it is." Nikki said. The sliding glass door to the deck above us creaked and moved, a slight reminder of the party going on upstairs. "You don't miss being the center of so much male attention?" I lean forward and tilt my head to my left and whisper into Nikki's ear. Nikki raised an eyebrow at me and smirked with a shake of her head 'no', "I don't miss it, not a bit." Nikki takes a sip of her wine and looks back out over the pool. Some of my loose damp hair falls down in front of my face, but I leave it as my eyes move to study Nikki some more, her hand is now up pushing hair over her ear. "You jealous?" Nikki asks and levels her sultry gaze over at me. "Yes." I say, "Very." Nikki sets her glass down and turns toward me, I set mine down and stand up a little straighter. It's hard to explain but it actually feels good to be wanted, and to know that your partner gets jealous sometimes. "I've missed holding my girl." Nikki whispers. "Awww, baby." I gush and we hug, she begins kissing along my neck and I kiss her ear as we lean away and brush our lips lightly. She smells nice, our bodies are still a little damp and I realize that I can feel her nipples thru our dresses and that mine are hard as well, but my bra helps conceal that fact, somewhat. Nikki leans her forehead against mine, my heart started pumping, I tried to steady myself but couldn't help but start shivering a little. "I love you more then anything in the world." Nikki's voice cracked and she began to cry, her kiss was passionate, loving, and tender all at the same time. "Oh I love you so much Nik." I cried and we crushed into an embrace and I felt her pelvis press against mine, and I instantly ground back against hers, the warmth and wetness flowed between my thighs. Nikki smiled at me a little, her dark eyes drew me in seductively, a nice song was filtering down from the speakers above us, it was Lionel Richie singing 'All Night Long'. "I could entertain you by showing off my dancing skills." I giggle and spin around and perform a little wiggle with my hips to the rhythm of the music. "Oh god." Nikki laughs and covers her mouth with one hand. "Your just jealous of my skills" I say. "I'll stand clear so as not to get hurt." Nikki chuckles. I stick my tongue out at Nik and flip her 'the bird' while I raise my hands over my head and perform a little gyration of my hips and torso, "It gets the job done." I say and try to perform a seductive little turn of my body towards Nikki. "Yeah, that little move does work wonders on me, I'll give you credit." Nikki awkwardly shuffles and I know it's turning her on. Nikki smiles and joins me in our little dancing, she free forms to every beat and note of the music, flowing to her own rhythm and circles me a few times as we occasionally bump into one another, fortunately on purpose and not because I am a big klutz. :) The song ends, but transitions into 'How can I fall?' by Breathe. "Oh, I love this song." Nikki says and we slow down our movements, Nikki and I pull into a hug, spin and release, even though we are all improvising and a little unsteady due to the alcohol, Nikki appears as graceful as ever. I turn to look at Nikki as our hands reach out and claps palm to palm to pull in and then away, I bend down a little as I spin under her outstretched arm and come back up, but I misjudge the turn and end up with my back to her. I feel her body press from behind and it causes jolts to shoot thru me like I've been shocked, but this is a sensual, almost sexual shock running thru my body and I have to catch my breath. Her hands wrap around my waist as we twist our hips in slow sync to the music. I wish I could capture this, the sensations, the smells of the moment. We are drenched in sweat from the humidity and faint mist blowing in from the passing rainstorm, our hair is matted to our faces, coupled with damp clothes clinging to every curve of our bodies. It makes for one of the most erotic and sensual feelings I've ever had. As I arch my back I feel Nikki's hips press into my butt and then our bodies seem to rotate as one, I am going out of my mind with lust for this girl! My nipples are fully erect, my most private area is aching for her touch. I feel her fingers tease up my thighs, raising my dress several inches but letting go of my hemline before going up too high. I turn to face Nikki so we can dance face to face, our arms tightly entwine as my chest takes a deep breath while my heart explodes excitement, 'Oh my god' my heart is beating so fast, and I feel lightheaded, our bodies do more of a soft grind up against one another to the beast of the music (whatever the hell was playing we didn't care or notice) we were looking so deep into each other's eyes it was amazing. Our hands begin to roam over the each other's body, simultaneously we press out lips together and begin a slow kiss. Nothing exists outside of our world now, yet my ears are assaulted with the sounds of kissing as we slurp and suck passionately on each other lips, my pussy spasms as we exchange a long open mouth kiss, Nikki pulls away and with it she sucks my tongue right out of my mouth! Nikki slides her hand down the front of my body and cups my sex, I tilt my head away and angle my hips forward to give her better access. Shit I was so fucking horny now, I couldn't help but mimic her gesture and begin rubbing Nikki sex thru her dress as well. Things speed up, no foreplay to be had here, I tilt my head back and somehow we have gone unnoticed by the mingling people above us, the narrow gaps in the deck boards give adequate cover. Good thing too, because I have a feeling this is going to get out of control right here in this spot. I block everything out and get back to this hot women in front of me as we let loose a torrent of lust on one another, almost the an anxious, inexperienced guy would act, we rub and squeeze each other's pussies thru the thin fabric of our dresses, kissing with greater intensity until a long string of moans and grunts flows wildly. There is no waiting now and in utter disbelief I feel Nikki pull off the straps to my dress, my fingers clumsily tug on Nikki's dress as well until we are in our underwear. Nikki starts impatiently tugging at my panties, I gasp as it tears and she rips it from my body, I quickly discard my bra and I am now completely nude on the back deck. I can't believe this as I kneel, Nikki pushes me down onto my back and pushes my legs apart. "So beautiful." Nikki sighs, her breath flowing over my aching crotch, the next second she's licking and making oral love to me, she brings me to multiple orgasms so fast I barely had time to throw my arm over my mouth and bite down to suppress my moans. Basically, and let me brutal here, we fuck each other's brains out right there on the deck, I go down on Nikki, we then get into a 69 and finally finger fuck each other to a mutual orgasms. Our bodies lay drenched in sweat as we lay entangled in a mess of arms and legs, both of us still shuddering and moaning from what we just experienced. Subconsciously I'm hoping that I escape this moment of passion with no splinters in my backside, ouch! "I can't believe you ripped my underwear off." I whisper. "Believe it." Nikki sighs and kisses my cheek. "Where did those two unfucking believably hot girls go, from earlier?" We overhear one guy say in a hushed tone to another friend on the above deck. "That's Mr. Smooth, the one that handed me his card." Nikki whispers into my ear. Nikki and I had to cover our mouths to keep from laughing as we eased dropped on the drunken conversation taking place above us. "If they only knew what was right below them." Nikki whispered. "So how do you think it went with Nikki?" and I recognize Tim's voice asking the question. "Good, real good, I gave her my card so we'll see. If I can get her to go out a few times she come back to the home team." He says. "I doubt it." Tim sighs. "Why?" "She balled up your card and threw it over the side." Time chuckled. "Fuck, your full of shit!" The guy challenged his friend and they talked a little more until the guy was convinced Tim was being honest. "Let's go." I say, and we collect our tattered clothes and go back to my room, we grab a large blanket and go out onto the small deck outside my room where a large hammock is strung up, we climb on and wrap the blanket around our nude bodies, cuddling and holding one another. But Nikki wasn't done, I feel her hand maneuver between our bodies. "What are you doing!" I gasp. "I love watching you cum." Nikki moans and now I'm the one moaning as my whole body begins to squirm when her finger delicately starts to massage my clit. I cum all over her hand as she gently cups my crotch when my orgasm subsides. She brings her hand up to her mouth and I watch eyes-wide as she tastes my juices, then proceeds to insert her fingers into my mouth so I can taste myself. This of course leads to some very long, passionate kissing. Amazing, talk about total 180 degree changes. In a period of one week, I went from never having had sex, to Nikki and I making love as often as possible, wherever possible! WHENever possible! Perfect example, the very next night Nikki walks up to me and says "I have an idea." She takes me back to our room and proceeds to pull out our bathing suites. Yes I was tired, but still not so sleepy that I wanted to object and so I let her lead me out to the pool. She stopped us just short of the entrance where the showers and a small changing room stood, a 'pool house' if you will, so we could change into our swimsuits. "You coming in?" Nikki asked as she descended the later into the pool, I stood at the edge contemplating for a minute before sitting down, letting my feet dangle in the warm water. "Just going to relax for a minute." But I had another question on my mind and decided to probe some, "So tell me, why did you bring me out here?" Nikki didn't answer right away, but had this smile on her face as she performed a slow leisurely swim in the vicinity of where I sat. "You know why." she glanced over at me once and smiled. "Is this some new fetish of yours? Making love outside?" I could feel the blush in my cheeks and glanced around once again. In the dark of the dunes it gave us the feeling of solitude and secrecy, I hoped that's what she had in mind and not trying to do something in this pool. The lights were turned down low, but still, everything was illuminated and I wondered if we were being watched by any of the neighboring beach houses. Probably not, it was almost 3:00AM, and every light was out. More importantly our own beach house backed right up over the pool and several of the bedrooms had windows overlooking the this area. 'Stop being paranoid.' I thought but never got an answer as Nikki submerged under the water for several seconds, I watched her body move gracefully thru the underwater shadows and resurface between my knees, that mischievous smile already on her lips. Her eyelids blinking several times as the water droplets cascaded over her head and eyes. "Nikki!" I leaned forward with a gasp, "Where is your top?" when I suddenly realized it was no longer on her. She never said a word; her right hand emerged from the water holding her black top. I looked around and leaned forward again, "Stop!" I hissed but I suppose my smile gave away my own weakening resolve. "You'll really be surprised with this." Nikki seductively said and I watched Nikki raise her arm from the water, she smiled as she rotated her hand to reveal her bikini bottoms. I leaned in some more and gasped, but my eyes and lust betrayed me. Nikki tugged and I shifted my legs until my buttocks were on the edge of the pool. "Hmmmmm" Nikki sighed as she pushed my knees apart, "Now that's in the way, isn't it." Her eyes traveled up from where my suite covered my crotch and stared into my eyes as if waiting for me to comply with an unspoken request. My head lowered and I hunched my shoulders a bit, I was feeling a bit shy and embarrassed for some reason as I slipped the straps off my shoulders. I looked up behind me at our house and all the curtains were closed and that gave me some relief as I started to remove my top, although anyone from inside the house could easily be spying on us and I wasn't at all thrilled about letting anyone watch Nikki make love to me. "Your so cute." Nikki bobbed a little in the water, observing my cautious behavior and reluctance. I really dragged out the last part, untying the small bow on the side of my bikini bottom, I then leaned to one side to pull it free. I was now totally nude and I must say totally aroused, evident in how hard my nipples were. "Closer." Nikki whispered as her head moved in deep within my thighs, I shuddered when I realized what she was after. God I felt so vulnerable, sitting nude as I opened my legs, now my sex was completely exposed to her. Slowly I watched Nikki's deliciously long tongue lick run up the length of my slit, then flick at my clit. My chest heaved as my fingers flexed, gripping the edge of the pool. Nikki prodded at my hole with her tongue and I thrust my hips forward off the edge to meet her, at the same time I could feel a finger flicking at the very base of my vagina, her nail teasing from one orifice to the other. It made me shutter and whimper, I no longer gave a fuck about being nude, my eyes alternated between closed and open as I struggled to keep my balance. Softly, Nikki dipped a finger into my entrance, then in one steady motion pushed it inside, all the way to her knuckle. I moaned and arched my back, my long legs flexed out straight and I had to wonder, 'If a finger elicited this kind of stimulation from my body, imagine what a penis would feel like'. Nikki leaned down and wrapped her mouth around my clit and she sucked it hard as she explored me with the length of her finger. My hips began to buck to her every stimulation, and then Nikki curved her finger inside of me stimulating me further, that combined with her sucking lips and flicking tongue coaxed an orgasm out of my body. It peaked when she withdrew her finger and thrust two up into my tight dripping tunnel. As if possessed, I rammed my hips into her face, trying to somehow bury her even further inside me, I was really feeling those two fingers now as my ass scooted erratically around the edge of the pool. My whole being shook with the force of the orgasm that overtook me as she kept up the steady pressure on my clit. Once Nikki's touches subsided I shuddered one last time and slowly lowered myself backward collapsing onto the ground behind me, arms splayed at my sides. My legs remained apart, as limp as the rest of my body, I felt Nikki kiss my sex delicately causing me to shudder and moan again. Not a word was spoken as I slowly sat up. Nikki moved back as I lowered myself into the water and then she moved right up to me, our kiss came fast but then slowed and I could taste myself on my her lips and tongue. What had happened to me these past few days I began to wonder, I was doing things that I had never done and doing it with this girl, and my best friend! It makes for a dangerous combination. We stayed in the shallow part as we kept kissing, sucking on each others tongues for long minutes, then moving under water, but still we kept kissing and hugging. It was as if I felt complete, more so then with any boyfriend. Nikki suddenly pulled away and climbed out of the water, I watched the water cascade over her tan, firm backside, I was momentarily mesmerized. She then took up the same position on the edge of the pool where I had sat earlier. Nikki's lips were already spread and dripping with moisture as I played a finger along her folds. I sucked the engorged clit into my mouth and continued in a slow teasing rhythm, Nikki really got into this, her whole body would sway as she watched me go down on her. In a moment of weird aggression I would sink my teeth into her inner thighs, sucking and biting my way up to her sex, this act Nikki loved as it always caused her to buck and squirm, sometimes even squealing with delight. That was enough to send her over the edge and she shouted, "I'm coming, yes, don't stop. I'm coming." Her whole body heaved as she came, her muscles clamping around my two fingers inside of her now as her thighs squeezed my head, yet I kept sucking her as she came, shaking with each new ripple that coursed through her body. "Fuck," she said when she had finally caught her breath, "That was incredible." And slid off the edge back into the water where we gently masturbated each other, mouths slurping at each other's breasts as our fingers circled our targets. Finally we were spent and slowly made our way back up to our room. I don't recall what time it was when I drifted off to sleep, but I do recall waking up with the faintest hint of sunrise coming up. I laid there for several minutes and my mind drifted, I wondered if this was 'it' for me, my happy ever after with Nikki? Or would some dark menacing force intervene down the road to disrupt my love life, actually the reality of that menacing force would surface in the form of other men and women that would come into our lives and try to break us up, either by stealing me or Nikki from one another, yes our future would be tested, but I couldn't foresee any of that back then so I just did the only thing I could and help my girl close to me. Anyway, more importantly I needed to pee so I untangled myself from Nikki's embrace and stumbled off to the bathroom, which was right out side of Vera's room. I mention that fact because of the noises coming from her bedroom and with the door cracked I found my curiosity was getting the better of me. I did initially reject the idea of spying but my voyeuristic side took over and I leaned around the corner to peak. But I already knew what was happening, my ears were being assailed by the distinct sound of two people having sex and from all of the moaning it was obvious things were well under way. What I didn't expect was the visual site that came into view as my head peaked around the corner. Yes I felt guilt and shame for peaking, I should have just gone into the bathroom and then back to bed. But no, I had to peak, besides I've stumbled upon couples having sex while at parties when I've gotten lost in a house looking for a bathroom, only to open a bedroom door. But now I wanted to see and fortunately my eyes were well adjusted to the dark, although as I indicated the sun was starting to creep up. The sight before me was outrageous and emotionally I couldn't seem to process what I was seeing. There was Vera, totally nude, standing spread-legged, but leaning over the bed with her arms out and braced against the top of the bed. Behind her was the guy she had taken to bed earlier in the night, well at least she was consistent on this particular night, he too was totally nude. What threw me was Vera's open stance, allowing him maximum access, her legs were straight and as I indicated she was bent forward at the waist. His right hand was on her hips moving her back and forth, there was no lovemaking between them, it was a fuck (sorry, vulgar sounding I know), and from how she moved and sounded Vera was enjoying every bit of it. My mind seemed to suddenly split in two, part of me was repulsed and found the scene a total turn off. All of my fantasies and dreams always involved women and men that I knew intimately, the idea of sex without love always seemed to fall outside the realm of my understanding and desires. But here I was, eyes riveted to these two people, both of them doused in sweat and panting desperately, my eyes watched him periodically reach up with his left hand and grip a handful of her hair and pull back. It looked uncomfortable, but Vera simply let go a long moan of pure pleasure causing her to further arch her back. There was a combination of factors that kept me rooted in place, the wonderful sex Nikki and I had just earlier was still reverberating throughout my body and mind, the fact that I was standing there in the nude (I don't know why I mention this other then the fact that it added a greater element of exposure on my part, making me all the more aware of my own sexuality as I watched). So the battle in my mind continued between seeing this as an erotic sight, versus the lack of love and intimacy. Then there are the audible stimulants of their sweaty bodies loudly slapping together, Vera's vocal grunting and backward grinding indicated she was lost to everything, except having this man fuck her. My body freezes in panic as I watch him back away from her and pull out, thinking I was discovered, but then he slowly moves forward again. This time he lowers himself a little (and I have to stop and say that a part of my subconscious seemed to be studying this with a degree of analysis, sounds scientific and cold I know, but part of me was trying to relate to all of it.) Anyway, it was a lewd sight as he hunched up and over her all the while she is arching back and that's when I noticed how the sounds seem to fade away, but I realize it was due to the pounding in my eardrums. My heart rate had significantly increased, it had snuck on me and now I was aware of my open mouth and breath coming a little faster (That's my raw emotional side now trying to take over). Suddenly I could see a noticeable difference in the muscles along the back of his body contracting and then relax as he let out a long, loud moan. Well that was my cue to leave, the climax that was about to take place I did not find so exciting and I lost all interest. I took a step back and slipped into the bathroom, quietly I closed and locked the door as I suddenly felt an emptiness in the pit of my stomach from what I had just seen, 'Where is the love, the emotional intimacy between two people after making love?' I couldn't imagine that happening between Vera and her one night stand, no they would just end up crashing into sleep afterwards. 'How lonely and pathetic' I thought. The intimacy and security of knowing I would wake up day after day with her across from me was just as exhilarating as the actual orgasm I had earlier, but it was a psychological high of sorts. I guess I just can't make sense of it, Vera wanted sex without commitment I guess, that's her choice, although the wrong one in my mind. I took a deep breath and quietly exited that bathroom, successfully getting back to the room and into bed. The bedroom from which so much activity was coming from not more then a few minutes ago was deathly silent, 'Just as I thought', both fast asleep. I shook my head as I climbed back into bed and felt Nikki roll over, her warm naked body wiggling up close to mine as we held one another.