My Story Part 61 By Corbin ********** My right hand reached over and set the Corona down on the nearby kitchen counter and returned to grab the blue string of my bikini top that wrapped around the back of my neck. "This..." I went to say. But as fate would have it the damn string got hung up under the collar of my white tee shirt, believe it or not, that small inconvenience was the last straw and I blew like a raging volcano. "THIS IS MY FUCKING PROBLEM!" My right hand curled into a fist around the neck line of my shirt. My forearms and biceps bulged and flexed as I pulled down, the fabric ripped with such ease it was as if I was tearing a paper towel in half. I mean holy shit! It was amazing! I just tore open my shirt with one single pull, right down the middle until my right breast, that hung barely in the confines of it's bikini top spilled out, shortly followed by my left. Sharon's whole body seemed to flinch in reaction to the violent way I tore the shirt off. "Right here!!" My fingers finally gripped that blue strap around my neck, "YOU wanted me to buy this and wear it, fine! I did! But you knew I was uncomfortable with it!" "Then why did you buy it?" Sharon quickly countered with a new quiver in her voice. "To fucking please you Sharon!" I snapped angrily, "But no more! This fucking thing is coming off today and never going back on! And I grabbed my tattered tee shirt at the shoulders and ripped the rest of it from my body in one strong jerk, flinging the shredded material at Sharon. She took a step back and held it for a few seconds before letting it fall to the floor, Sharon looked truly stunned, I guess never seeing me this angry and literally leaned the entire frame of her body back slightly, totally dazed. I was so mad, I even had spit flying off my lips my voice was like a roar as I jabbed my fingers in Sharon's direction, almost in synch with every word that flew out of my mouth. "Maybe you and the rest of those girls enjoy jumping around and having your suits barely hang onto your body for all the world to see and enjoy but not me!" "Corbin!...I just don't?" "You just don't get it do you Sharon! I beginning to think you really don't know me after all!" My face felt flushed, more so then the sun had already made it, and I turned around before I said something I regretted. Grabbing my beer I jerked open the sliding glass door with a good heave, but not before I gave a another quick angry response, "And take those fucking sunglasses off if you want to have a serious conversation with me!" I slid the door shut with such force that I anticipated the glass might shatter or the door would be ripped from its rails. I pulled up a chair on the deck and looked out over the dunes, kicking my feet up on the railing I began to sip on my Corona. My left hand came up to my sweat and lotion covered stomach as if to try and help calm myself. About a minute went by as I closed my eyes taking a deep breath before I dug into my right pocket to withdrew my shades and put them on. A zillion thoughts went thru my mind, but in the end I felt better, it felt good to vent like that, I rarely did that type of thing. My body tensed as I heard the door slide open slowly, then slide shut. From the corner of my left eye I saw a flash of a pink bathing suite and then Sharon was pulling a chair up next to mine. My feet began to nervously rock with that anticipation of a heavy conversation coming up. Sharon sat down on the edge of the seat and studied me for a few seconds and then she cleared her throat, the next thing I felt was her hand gently touching my left forearm but I just jerked it away defensively, I think that shocked Sharon more then my yelling. "I'm sorry." She said. I caught sight of her elbows resting on her knees now, her fingers clasping together, nervously twitching. "I just get carried away, and I, I shouldn't try and make you do things you don't want to do. I just wish you would tell me if your not comfortable doing stuff." Maybe Sharon thought I didn't hear her, because I just remained staring out over the blue ocean water. "I did try and what did I get in response? Oh yes, I remember now, something to the effect of 'Fine be that way' and 'Forget it', yeah, that's what you said down on the beach." Before I could finish, I felt Sharon's hand reach out and suddenly latch onto my forearm, but I didn't pull away this time. "I'm sorry baby. Please..." Sharon's voice cracked with emotion as I got a quick glance of the tears streaking out of her eyes. I breathed out a deep sigh and just tapped my fingers on the glass bottle. "I don't know Sharon." I said in a quiet voice and lowered my head, my mind was swirling with so many conflicting thoughts, doubting if I really could be in a relationship with any girl. Sharon had brought her other hand up and now gripped my forearm with both hands as if trying to pull me back to her, to bring me in and focus on her. "What?" Sharon's voice was shaking now, and part of me was reassured that she was so upset, the most upset I've seen her in a long time. "I don't know anymore, after seeing the way you were flirting with those guys down there." "Don't you even go there! Don't! I can't believe you would even think it!" Sharon could barely get the words out in between gasping sobs, and now I must say that I don't think I have ever seen her this upset. As for me, I brought the bottle up to my lips, lips that quivered as I tried to gulp down a couple of swallows of beer, trying to drown the rising emotions inside of me, but it was hard. As I pulled the bottle from my mouth I noted the trembling of my right hand had returned and was forced to set the bottle down on the ground before it fell out of my hand. "You can't believe what's going thru my head?" I asked in a low whisper as I fought to keep my own emotions in check. I rotated my shoulders to turn and fully look at Sharon who was silently weeping, her eyes bloodshot as tears streamed down her cheeks, her full beautiful breasts stained with streaks of tears and sweat. "We'll, you better believe this, you left me in a very vulnerable place down on the beach, don't ever do it again." And I turned to look back out over the ocean, my right hand came up as my fingertips touched my cheeks and lips as if I was performing some self-examination. I was so barely holding it together, barely. I sat watching the waves roll in and then felt those soft, moist lips on my neck, hot breathe on my skin and the wetness of her cheek, surely from salty tears. It must have been her touch that finally pushed me over the edge as my right hand quickly covered my eyes. I could feel my heart beating in slow hard thumps, driving the blood up into my now flushing cheeks as I clenched my jaw. But it was no use as I began to cry, the tears overwhelmed my eyelids running down and over my sensitive, sun tanned cheeks. Sharon just wrapped her arms around my neck, her lips finding their way to my left ear, her breathe rushing into the canal. "I'll never do that again, you're my baby, I didn't mean to hurt you. I could never hurt you. I'm so sorry please forgive me." Sharon whispered and wept her apologies covering my neck and left cheek with more warm, soft kisses. "They're coming back." I cleared my throat suddenly and watched the girls make they're way up the boardwalk to the house. They were saying lingering goodbyes to large group of guys. "I don't care." Sharon said and remained holding me. Now that set off all sorts of alarms in my head. Oh Shit, I wasn't prepared for this, in essence, Sharon was indicting that we were going to "out" our relationship to everyone in this house. This was a moment I will never forget, I had pushed Sharon to the edge and now she was pushing back. Sharon could be reckless in her decisions sometimes, but did she fully realize what the implications of this were? Did she think that none of this would find it's way back to our parents! I was ready to pass out when I heard the sliding door open and prayed that this went well. Sharon's chair was saddled right next to mine now, her long, tan right leg was draped over my left thigh, her right hand clutching and holding my left hand in her lap. "So!" I heard Vera's voice as she stood poised in the doorway, her hands gripping the frame of the door, "The cat is out of the bag I take it?" A big smile crossed her face. I had suspected that Vera might have been in-tune with what was going on between Sharon and I all along. Sharon just smiled and looked over at me, then back Vera, "Yep, no more secrets." We watched Vera walk around and lean against the railing, so she could face us. "Well, this is a surprise." Vera stood their, her arms folded with some degree of satisfaction, "I had my suspicion." but she never got to finish as the rest of the girls came noisily up the stairs. "Well good." Vera looked up, "You get to tell everyone at once, and your friend Tina when she arrives this evening." A smug smile came over her face as Kelly, Rachel and Jenn came out on the deck. "Where did you two go?" Rachel piped up, "Yeah." Jenn added as they all pulled up chairs around us. I was feeling VERY uncomfortable right now as Sharon and I remained locked onto one another. At first it must not have registered as they didn't say anything, but after a minute Rachel got this look on her face and Vera just smiled. "What's wrong? What are you guys doing?" Rachel asked as Kelly and Jenn slowly looked over and started to process the entire scene in there own heads as I tried to read what they could possibly be thinking. "What is this, some type of kinky thing?" Kelly half chuckled. I just smiled and my face blushed, forcing me to look away. "Is this some type of joke?" Rachel sat up in her chair. "No." Sharon said in a very relaxed manner. "Waaaaiiiiittttt a minute!" Jenn said as a light bulb went off in her head. "Are you telling me..." the finger of her left hand came up, pointing at us in an almost an accusatory manner. Sharon sat up and looked at first Vera, then Jenn, Rachel and Kelly. "I'm glad your sitting down, because what I got to say is going to knock everyone on there their asses?" "No fucking way!" Rachel slumped back into her chair, her look one of shock and despair. Great, this may not go so well as Kelley's mouth now dropped open as she pulled off her sunglasses. "To answer your inquisitive, dumbstruck looks, 'Yes' we are a couple. Like involved or dating one another." "You and Corbin?" Jenn said leaning forward, her eyes wide and mouth open, apparently wanting further confirmation. "NO! Me and YOU! Of course me and Corbin, who am I sitting here holding hands and playing footsies with!" Sharon snapped. "Holly shit!" Kelly said shaking her head in disbelief, "When? Where? How?" Kelly started to ramble and sputter. Rachel remained slumped back with her mouth wide open while Vera was grinning ear to ear at the site. The next hour was a head splitting mess of answering questions. Sharon laid it on the line pretty well, basically that we couldn't go thru the entire week pretending that nothing was going on. "Well, uhm." Kelly just performed a kind of nervous giggle and twirled her sunglass in her right hand, "That's kind of cool." She said smiling, "Not my deal, but still, it's sweet, I mean as long as you two are happy, you know?" She looked over at Vera, Rachel and Jenn for support. Vera just smiled and shrugged. "Thank's Kelly." Sharon said with a smile. "I need a drink." Rachel suddenly stood up and went into the kitchen abruptly.